Hold Me Down

This song was written with a specific person in mind, but I think many can relate. The very first singer for Steady On was a recent High School graduate and she was chomping at the bit to see and do absolutely everything. I sensed a lot of frustration in her trying to calm down and take the Lord's lead as he provided it for her, so I wrote this song. It turns out that "Steady On" was one of the "Too Much, Too Fast" things she was trying, so the prophetic ending to the song is she ended up stepping back from the band (allow Glenna to take her place, one of the singers on the first CD who I think we can agree did a fantastic job!)

But "Hold Me Down" was not a song written only about someone else. As a very passionate and driven person, I can relate. We can get VERY impatient when we feel like we have a specific mission that God has equipped us for, and yet no place to use it. It can feel frustrating, unfair, and just plain confusing. But I remember a quote someone once said (I want to say it was Rich Mullins, but I don't want to misattribute if I'm wrong): "It's better to be loved by God than used by God". This is not to say we shouldn't be ready to step up and serve, but we can get so focused on the "mission" we forget the relationship. There were a LOT of people in scripture that were used to great ends, but never had a loving relationship with God (Judas is the most stark example). We don't want to fall into this trap.

For me, it's something I have ask God to do- to hold me back and don't let me try to run ahead on my own. I do not want to be like Abraham who took matters into his own hands, trying to ensure God's promise of descendants beyond measure. The results of that act of faithlessness were not good, even though he had good intentions.

Yes, it can be dark and frustrating, but I think the key is to focus on God and realize that all of this world will one day pass away, but our relationship with him is forever. His plan is safe, and we will play whatever part in it his grace allows. But to be loved by God is already more than enough, and if our service to him is for a season or a lifetime to known him deeper and deeper, that's no small thing. Whatever his call on our lives for whatever period of time, I pray that we can be prepared to "wait" when he says wait and go when he says "go".


And yes, I will point out the last Steady On CD came out in 2004. This new CD has been marinating for quite a while, but I do believe it's coming in God's perfect timing!

I'm living with a vision
And a passion deep inside
I have no doubt you've given me
This desire for my life

But sometimes I get nervous
And I think that somethings wrong
Perhaps I missed a word from you
Because this wait is much too long

I look around this place I'm in
And see nothing left to do
How will I ever finish this
If I never move

It's hard not to feel broken
And forget the truth I know
That you are ever here with me
And won't leave me alone

When I want to run ahead
Lord hold me down and help me understand
My dreams are not on hold
You have them safely in your perfect plan
One day I'll see beyond this simple
View of life I have right now
When I'm impatient and needing you
To come and hold me down

It's getting harder every day
To walk at this slow place
It's easy to question the path I'm on
And the difference I can make

But however I am feeling
You have a plan for me
So help me walk with you in faith
And take the steps I see

When I want to run ahead
Lord hold me down and help me understand
My dreams are not on hold
You have them safely in your perfect plan
One day I'll see beyond this simple
View of life I have right now
When I'm impatient and needing you
To come and hold me down

My hope is not in what this world will bring
There's a greater life beyond what I can see
Yet I know my passions are not mistakes
You have a time and place for everything

When I want to run ahead
Lord hold me down and help me understand
My dreams are not on hold
You have them safely in your perfect plan
One day I'll see beyond this simple
View of life I have right now
When I'm impatient and needing you
To come and hold me down

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